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I feel like I need to do something else besides studying for the Abitur the whole time, so I will rather tell you what was up during the last few days.
Especially today has been an interesting day so far. The phone call my little sister made woke me up at 9:30. This is actually a good time to wake up, but the only problem was that I went to sleep extremely late last night (I think it was 1:30) and therefore this means that I just had 8 hours of sleep. On top of that I am still sick and I can't get over my sickness. This cough is killing me mostly then, when I want to fall asleep. Or maybe I just don't realize it during the day, who knows. Anyway, so I was awake by then and supposed to pick her up from school. The trouble was that I didn't have a car, since my dad is away since Tuesday and my mom went shopping. The only possibility for me to keep my promise to my sister was to go and ask some neighbors to pick her up. I actually found someone too and just because she was on vacation today :) So when I was back home, I decided to go to school again, because I wanted to find out what kind of average I can count on in the Abitur if all goes well. And guess what.... I think I can manage a 1,2 average. This is incredible. I even have the opportunity to get a 1,1 if I work to the full of my capacity. Now this all should be enough motivation for me to study, but I just don't feel like it. I also spoke to a lot of teachers today, and they all said they weren't doing a thing for their Abitur and they are intellectuals, so I think it is not too bad if I don't do as much as I had wanted to. Hoepfully I am making the right decision. It is not that I won't do anything at all, it is just that I won't do as much. Some more historical background on the US and GB, maybe reading through Moon Palace one more time, and of course reviewing history. With the rest of my time, I think I will study for math, because this is probably the subject where time is most efficiently used, because the outcome will be the better the more time I put into it. I really feel like I could make it up to 13 points in the Abitur.
Since yesterday, I know that I want to be a physician. I feel much more comfortable with this decision and I am now way more relaxed about my life and see everything in a very positive ligth. I know it will be an extremely hard education including physics, chemistry and math, but so what. The thing most important is that I know that I am capable of doing all of that. And people around me said that I would be a good physician. This is also why I walked all the way from home to school in order to find out if I can meet the Numerus Clausus. Everything seems to point to me being a physician, because yesterday when I did some research I found a cool site of the Uni in Freiburg and the secretary's name was Corinna Kersten. Imagine that. This is almost my name. Now I am not saying all of this HAS to be a hint, but it really feels like it. Because yesterday was the day where I wanted to finish my application for the auditions in summer.
Now I am even thinking of taking off one year after school, allowing myself to rest a little, work and travel to some parts in the world. We will see what the future holds. But it definitely is nicer than before :) All of this music stress is gone now. Let me know what you think though, because I am really eager to get as many opinions as possible. Do you think, I will be able to do it all, phsyically, mentally etc.???
Especially today has been an interesting day so far. The phone call my little sister made woke me up at 9:30. This is actually a good time to wake up, but the only problem was that I went to sleep extremely late last night (I think it was 1:30) and therefore this means that I just had 8 hours of sleep. On top of that I am still sick and I can't get over my sickness. This cough is killing me mostly then, when I want to fall asleep. Or maybe I just don't realize it during the day, who knows. Anyway, so I was awake by then and supposed to pick her up from school. The trouble was that I didn't have a car, since my dad is away since Tuesday and my mom went shopping. The only possibility for me to keep my promise to my sister was to go and ask some neighbors to pick her up. I actually found someone too and just because she was on vacation today :) So when I was back home, I decided to go to school again, because I wanted to find out what kind of average I can count on in the Abitur if all goes well. And guess what.... I think I can manage a 1,2 average. This is incredible. I even have the opportunity to get a 1,1 if I work to the full of my capacity. Now this all should be enough motivation for me to study, but I just don't feel like it. I also spoke to a lot of teachers today, and they all said they weren't doing a thing for their Abitur and they are intellectuals, so I think it is not too bad if I don't do as much as I had wanted to. Hoepfully I am making the right decision. It is not that I won't do anything at all, it is just that I won't do as much. Some more historical background on the US and GB, maybe reading through Moon Palace one more time, and of course reviewing history. With the rest of my time, I think I will study for math, because this is probably the subject where time is most efficiently used, because the outcome will be the better the more time I put into it. I really feel like I could make it up to 13 points in the Abitur.
Since yesterday, I know that I want to be a physician. I feel much more comfortable with this decision and I am now way more relaxed about my life and see everything in a very positive ligth. I know it will be an extremely hard education including physics, chemistry and math, but so what. The thing most important is that I know that I am capable of doing all of that. And people around me said that I would be a good physician. This is also why I walked all the way from home to school in order to find out if I can meet the Numerus Clausus. Everything seems to point to me being a physician, because yesterday when I did some research I found a cool site of the Uni in Freiburg and the secretary's name was Corinna Kersten. Imagine that. This is almost my name. Now I am not saying all of this HAS to be a hint, but it really feels like it. Because yesterday was the day where I wanted to finish my application for the auditions in summer.
Now I am even thinking of taking off one year after school, allowing myself to rest a little, work and travel to some parts in the world. We will see what the future holds. But it definitely is nicer than before :) All of this music stress is gone now. Let me know what you think though, because I am really eager to get as many opinions as possible. Do you think, I will be able to do it all, phsyically, mentally etc.???
posted by Kerstin @ 12:02 PM
2 Comments:
At 31/3/06 05:35,
Anonym said…
I know you are capable of becoming a wonderful physician. It is a profession in which I think you can find satisfaction and worth in because of the concrete interations you will inevitable have with people. You have so many talents and I think they will perhaps be even better spent in the field of medicine rather than in music. No, I am not saying that one is better than the other, but one I am saying is that one of the career choices is better for you. I guess it is easy to say that music has always brought some sort of stress to your life- negative stress. It has been a stress that hasn't brought a lot of joy and enthusiasm to your life. I guess when you think about it now, why would you go into that... stress. Because you have found a potential passion in pursuing medicine, I think you should go for it. I no longer think the question you ask yourself should be, "Oh, what should I do with my life?" Rather, I think it should be, "What will I enjoy doing with my life?" I think this is the correct question to ask because you are good at so many things and potentially good at whatever you dedicate yourself to. I believe your success will be based off oh how passionate you will become about what you do. No, I am not talking about your success as a doctor. I am talking about your success and happiness as a person. You come first because when you are happy and able to be the person who you truly are... to her fullest potential... then the rest of the world will be able to enjoy that, too.
At 31/3/06 05:41,
Anonym said…
P.S. I'm so proud of you and I look forward to discussing further details and feelings about this decision in the future. Congratulations on all of your academic achievments! I know you have worked so hard. I think you have an absolutely wonderful life ahead of you full of inspiring learning experiences and memories.
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